I wish I could change things and I wish he didn’t see me as he does. But for the first time in a long time I’m doing good for myself and actually serious about getting my life back together. If he doesn’t want to are that or doesn’t want to have anything to do with me then I have to let him be. I love him but I can’t do this to myself. And I’d he really loved me as much as he said then he would be helping not making me feel even more then the piece of shit I feel like. Moving IA getting easier and earlier with everyday that goes by. Maybe one day I could be happy with someone that wants to be with me. I need to give up on my fairy tale relationship. Cause at the end of the day everything happens for a reason.